I let the tears blind my sight as she walked away for the hundredth time

They all said,
‘Dont. all she does is break your heart’
But i can’t stand not seeing her stupid stupid smile
And i can’t stand not holding her hand
And i can’t stand to do this whole ‘life thing’ without her

‘Dont. all she does is break your heart.’ they told me
Again and again and again
Every time those stupid tears blinded my sight
And you know what fucking sucks
Every time they told me those words again
And those stupid tears blinded me all over again
I wasn’t mad at myself
For letting myself into the cycle again
But I was just mad
That i couldn’t see her
Breaking my heart again and again

12:11; 13/5/16